Yes I want what I can't have...sue me!

I'm horrible at wanting what I can't have.

So this is one of those posts where you will either hate me or understand me. :)

When someone tells me I can't have something...or if I happen to lose something that before I didn't really care about...I want it. My mind is consumed with getting it back or getting it at all!

Sad right? I think that is how my husband got me...he knew this about me and gave me the impression that he wasn't interested...what the WHAT? 10 years later...you know the end of that story! :)

I thought as I matured that I would get over this annoying little personality trait. But no...it only gets worse.

Let me give you two most RECENT examples.

Pistachios.

Absolutely my MOST favorite snack of the nut family. (Let's face it, I have many other favorite snacks)

Let me tell you a secret. I buy a bag of those babies, de-shelled (yes I'm lazy like that), at Costco probably every 8 days. NO LIE. There not cheap either...just saying...My daughter loves them also, so it isn't just ME eating them, or that's what I like to tell myself. My husband and son will eat them also, but it's not their FIRST choice.

So with the recent RECALL of Pistachio's...I'm going nuts. No pun intended. I CRAVE them now. It's weird. Before, when I could have them at my whim, I guess I didn't APPRECIATE my Pistachio freedom...

This is how horrible I am. When I was told about the Pistachio Salmonella poisoning I spent quite a bit of time researching exactly WHICH plant they came from and if they effected the ones I buy from Costco. Though the ones I buy from Costco are not from the same processing plant as the ones being recalled...Costco does have a trail mix that is effected but that's it...though they ADVISE to hold off on opening my BRAND spankin' new bag of de-shelled pistachio's until everything settles down.

I'm obsessed with thinking about them. I feel like I should be in a Psyche Ward or something.

My friend brought some shelled pistachio's to mine and her son's soccer game...and as I was warning her about the salmonella poisoning I ate a handful of hers...because they were already opened and she had eaten HALF the bag and hadn't been effected so we figured we were safe...

What?

Don't JUDGE me!

Second example. My current read.

I'm in the middle of a book.

I've lost that book. I think it fell out of my purse on one of the many rare occasions I leave it unzipped.

It isn't really that good to be honest.

But now that I have lost it.

I can't think of anything else besides HOW THAT STUPID BOOK TURNS OUT!

ARRRGGHHH!

What tops it all off. Not MY book...not the libraries book...but a good friends book. I have to go buy her a new one so I can finish the dang book and so that I don't look like someone who's not responsible.

Should I mention to her that I'm temporarily insane because I can't have my pistachio fix? Do you think she will understand? Have a good...pistachio freakin' free weekend!

Love,

Shelle