In front of the lens...

The whole week with Deyton I was the official, unofficial, photographer. I was the one always behind the lens, and that's okay, that's how I prefer it.

I know it usually doesn't seem that way :), but it's true, I like being behind the lens.

But in those 5 days, from birth to passing, I fell in love with the little guy. There was an incredible spirit around him, the kind of spirit that makes you warm, happy, and makes you feel like you want and ARE a better person.

I love him.

As I watched everyone hold the little guy with tears streaming down their faces to hit their humbled smiles, because that is what you felt while you held him, is humbled... I waited for my turn.

The day he passed away I was there in the room to share the experience with them and record it through pictures for them.

So I was so grateful that I got this moment in front of the lens instead of behind it, because THIS was my most favorite moment of that week!


I just remember thinking and feeling that I want to live everyday better so that I can see him again... and hold him in my arms, and thank him for reminding me what my end goal of this life is, and that is to return to my Father in Heaven.

Have a good Sunday!

Love,

Short Reprieve...

Hello everyone.

I'm going to get a little mushy here... so you are forewarned.

But I want you to know how much you all have strengthened me because I know that your comments are because you are my friends whether we have met in real life or not... and that means so much, and even though my sister and BIL are complete strangers to some of you, you have still helped them with your prayers and good thoughts and well wishes.

I want you to know that they are at peace as much as they can be... they know the road ahead of them is going to be tough... but they are also at peace for knowing that their special boy is up in heaven with his Heavenly Father.

The Funeral will be on Wednesday for all of you who are local and would like to be there. Please go HERE for further information.

I will take a short reprieve from blogging until after the Funeral. So I will be back again on Thursday with funny stories about New York.

I want you to know that although this experience as changed me, for the better, I am also who I am. I deal with things through laughter and humor and the beauty that comes through that. I want to continue to share my funny experiences and my life and my obsessions and quirky characteristics and continue to be a part of yours!

So don't give up on me (unfollow me) it would really be selfish of you guys to have me making VooDoo dolls during my reprieve! :)

Love you guys,

Returning Home...

Baby Deyton Kash Sorensen returned to his Father in Heaven today at 11:10 am, peacefully, in the arms of his parents at their home.

The beauty of their strength combined with their faith has been something I'll always cherish that I witnessed.

They made the hardest decision a parent could ever make yesterday. They decided to take their baby home and spend what time he had left on this Earth to love, hold, and cherish him.

With their belief and faith they understand that Deyton needed to come to this Earth to receive a body, but he was so valiant and so perfect that his Father in Heaven needed him more with him.

I can attest that Deyton and his spirit has forever changed me. I will never be the same. An experience like this I always thought I would feel like it was the worst and hardest experience ever, but I can tell you this, even though it was hard to watch my baby sister and one of my best friends live through losing a child, I am honored and cherish the blessings, miracles, and genuine beauty of the experience. So many personal things happened during these last five days. My testimony has been strengthened, my love has deepened, and I will always from this point on work even harder to live my life so that I may honor Deyton's name in word and deed and return to him so that I can hold him in my arms and thank him.

I can't begin to understand what my sister and her husband are thinking or feeling or going through, but they have allowed me to be a part of it, and for that I will always be in their debt.

I love you Deyton! I love you Baby Sis! I love you Derek! :)

Update on Baby Deyton.

***Donations are now being excepted for Deyton there is a donation button on Deyton's blog and a donation button on my right hand side bar :) Love you guys! :)

Update on Baby Deyton:

Deyton's has a heart condition called Hypo Plastic Left Heart syndrome. That is just one thing, there are other things also but that is the main thing.

After they were life flighted up to Primary Children's Hospital Daddy was told that surgery was no longer an option. Deyton's heart had 4 strikes against him and there wouldn't be a surgeon that would do the surgery. The doctors also told them that Deyton's case, HIS heart, was the WORSE case they have seen in the 200 cases they have done.

So now Mom and Dad are living a parents worst nightmare. They have a few choices of what they can do for little Deyton and it's like trying to choose between walking on nails and walking on glass you don't like either choice but in order to get across you have to choose one.

They have a VERY VERY hard decision to make.

They have asked me not to go over their choices, but they haven't decided what they are going to do.

Mom and Dad are the type of people that not only LOVE their family but the LOVE their friends, in fact, their friends ARE part of their family.

They wanted me to let you guys know that they are so amazed at the love and support that quickly came in after the news started spreading. They feel the strength of the love and prayers offered for them and for Deyton. They are very thankful that they have the Gospel to help them understand the bigger picture. And have just asked that you continue to pray for Deyton.

Thanks. For further updates and pictures one of Mom's really close friends has set up a blog for BabyDeyton that we will both update. It tells where you can donate money for hospital expenses if you feel so inclined. Pray 4 Deyton!