Sunday, August 9, 2009

In front of the lens...

The whole week with Deyton I was the official, unofficial, photographer. I was the one always behind the lens, and that's okay, that's how I prefer it.

I know it usually doesn't seem that way :), but it's true, I like being behind the lens.

But in those 5 days, from birth to passing, I fell in love with the little guy. There was an incredible spirit around him, the kind of spirit that makes you warm, happy, and makes you feel like you want and ARE a better person.

I love him.

As I watched everyone hold the little guy with tears streaming down their faces to hit their humbled smiles, because that is what you felt while you held him, is humbled... I waited for my turn.

The day he passed away I was there in the room to share the experience with them and record it through pictures for them.

So I was so grateful that I got this moment in front of the lens instead of behind it, because THIS was my most favorite moment of that week!


I just remember thinking and feeling that I want to live everyday better so that I can see him again... and hold him in my arms, and thank him for reminding me what my end goal of this life is, and that is to return to my Father in Heaven.

Have a good Sunday!

Love,

22 comments:

TentCamper said...

Very sweet. Almost made a man tear up.

That was a deep and loving post!!!!

Mariah said...

Oh Shelle, what a meaningful message, if only everyone wanted to feel the way that you do.

Emily Anne Leyland ( Art-n-Sewl) said...

Oh Shelle, that was beautiful!!!

ZenMom said...

This was lovely. Thank you for sharing this with us.

Shelle-BlokThoughts said...

It always surprises me when people stop by on Sunday's. Thanks guys so much for taking the time... kind of a different side of me :)

Barbaloot said...

That's a sweet picture, Shelle. And he is such a darling baby. I'm glad your family has the knowledge you'll get to be with him again someday.

Alyson (New England Living) said...

I know the feeling and you expressed it so well. Beautiful picture! Here's a big hug and lots of love from me! :)

Kristina P. said...

I am so glad you were able to capture that moment!

Amber Lynae said...

What a wonderful picture. I am glad that you have that memory in photo. He looks so precious.

Amanda said...

Beautiful. Thank you. You make me wish I could have held him too.

PJ - Our life said...

Well said, and it did bring tears to my eyes. Every time you talk about Deyton I think of your big sister and watching her run to be with him and your family.

Coachdad said...

What a great post and pic! Love it...

Chief said...

Thank you the reality check. I needed it today

Homer and Queen said...

Great photo! Why the suprise about Sunday? We want to ditch our families on that day too!!!

Southern Sage said...

excellent pic and your feelings were perfectly stated.

SciFi Dad said...

I have told you before, but I am in awe of the faith you demonstrate.

Michele Horne said...

Than you so much for sharing. It is beautiful.

Staci said...

So cute I really wanted to come to the funeral nobody too watch the kids though My mom and dad said it was amazing though:)

Devri said...

Shelle, oh my word! I can't stop the tears, not onl because a great family has to wait to see their warrior on the other side, but that you got to be a part of it! How wonderful those 5 days were for you all! God be with us till we meet again!

Malea said...

Rachelle, my found this site through a friend. Check it out. I think it's a perfect gift for Krystal. Be prepared, 'tho. I stayed and scrolled through the site and had a good cry.

Malea said...

sorry, here's the link: http://namesinthesand.blogspot.com/

RY & MAND WRIGHT said...

Just when I think I'm ok I read another post about Deyton and I am brought to tears yet again. This was a really sweet post Shell that was totally how it was. He was amazing the spirit was incredible and humbled is the perfect word to describe how I felt as well. Thanks for sharing that shell. Love you and Miss you!!!

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