Self-proclaiming...Self-promotion...does that make sense to anyone? Didn't think so! Call it creativity...

UPDATE: Okay they have this cool FOLLOWERS gadget with BLOGGER...and I added it to my Left Side bar...so you ADD me and I'll ADD you...then we can all look like we are UBER popular! LOL! Seriously though...start follow...everyone's doing it! :)

Even though I may seem totally full of myself...I'm really not. Even writing that sentence makes me seem that way huh?

But I'm not...

I like to talk big...but I can't quite back it up...if you know what I mean.

Growing up in the Dance industry...the one thing I was awful at was self-promoting myself. Seriously...

To make it anywhere in the Dance world...you not only have to be GOOD at what you do, but you also need to know how to speak up and tell people how good you are...which I would always JOKINGLY do...but it was hard for me to seriously do it...

For example...in dance class when you are learning a new piece and you have a "guest" choreographer...as a dancer...you realize that they have NO idea how talented, or for some, not talented you are. So when they ask, "Who can turn like there is NO tomorrow...?" (Definition: Unlimited turns...or at least 3 or more pirouette's). If you were a great dancer who could self-promote yourself you would instantly have your hand raised...or you would break out in a triple or quad pirouette.

I hated doing that. It's funny because my niece Tae just went through this exact thing...My older sister was like that...I was like that...she is like that...but, if you are going to make it in that tough world...you HAVE to do it.

I would just always hope that they would pick up on my talent and not make me TELL them I could do it...

Being a choreographer myself now...I realize...sometimes when you don't know the group very well, and you only have a few hours to put a piece on them...you just throw out moves you want...and it usually is, at least for me, first come first serve. The first person that shows me they can do it and do it well, is usually the first person I put in that spot for that particular solo or move for the dance.

I think this applies to most things in normal life. I have just never been really good at it. I usually do the opposite and downplay any talent I have because I don't want to sound prideful...and it's also a protective thing...I don't want to talk like I'm all that...and then not be up to par, or up to their par, and get rejected or fail! Do you have that same problem?

I have gotten a little better at promoting what I feel is MY talent...but, you know, kind of still have a problem as seeing it as spectacular or original, if you know what I mean.

So I was excited when Untypically Jia, who started Modern Molly Mormon, specifically emailed me to asked me to write for her site. I was so flattered that ANYONE would think that my writing is worth it (She was asking for ANY contributors...but I was flattered that she went out-of-her-way to write me a specifically ask me :))...I can't tell you what a childhood dream it was for me to be a writer. In 6th grade I wrote a piece about my experience playing in the snow...since where I live it doesn't snow much, it was a big deal! I got that English paper back and my teacher praised me for the detail and "wittiness" of my paper. Growing up...I continued to have a lot of success in English...almost every paper I got back gave great remarks, except for the grammar part, they would always tell me to study my grammar! Still a problem today. :) That is the very reason I didn't become an English Major...I couldn't be perfect or do spectacular at it, knowing I wasn't great at grammar, so I didn't pursue it. I downplayed the successful remarks by telling myself I couldn't ever attempt to be much in that field because I didn't have the basics down...like grammar. Don't get me wrong...I know a noun from a verb...I just have a rough time deciding where the punctuation goes sometimes! :)

So anyhow...I'm self-promoting myself. If you like at all what you read here...then you should check Modern Molly Mormon when it relaunches this week sometime (It has everything from crafts, cooking, and ideas for lessons--to Food Storage and Emergency Preparedness)...isn't that how it always is with the Internet? Never know if the site will work right...or be ready when you decide...which is why there is no specific date! :)

Also...I am going to start booking photography for families and children so if you are interested or know someone that is...and you like my stuff...I'd love it if you would give me a shout out. I don't have definite prices because I want to negotiate that...but compared to most...I'm REALLY reasonable because I'm finding it hard to charge a lot for something I find great joy in doing...it is the same with dance and choreography... :)--Someday, maybe, I charge what I'm worth :) For right now...take advantage of me...because I'm allowing it! :)



Am I the only one that has this problem? Or do you find that you do also? If you are good at this sort of thing...do you have any suggestions? Because I could really use them! :)