Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Being afraid of the Dark

I wasn't going to post today because I didn't have any ridiculous bathroom stories that I needed to tell and I didn't want to shy away from my theme after only 2 days.

But, I got over it.

I use to be deathly afraid of the dark when I was younger.

It felt like when the lights turned off I could feel the darkness around me like a living, breathing, thing...it makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up just thinking about those feelings.

Now the only thing that makes my hair stand on end is when I realize my stomach is getting old and I can't "Put it Down" like I use to...SCARY!

I attribute a lot of those feelings from being allowed to watch America's Most Wanted at a very early age...things happen in the dark...terrible, horrible, things. I believed it when my Mom said that the Holy Ghost goes to sleep after Midnight...only mine seemed to go to sleep after the Sun went down.

I couldn't even sit and enjoy any kind of beauty OUTDOORS...camping or whatever (Camping=whatever), because I knew that just around the corner...something was lurking and evil and scary.

When I would get home to an empty house, which was pretty rare because there are 6 kids in my family, including myself, I would turn on every light in the house so that I couldn't even look at darkness in any remote corner!

As I've matured, or gotten lazy, I tend to find peace in darkness now. No running around like a crazy person turning on lights...it exerts too much energy!!!

At night in the summers now, I'll go out and stare at the HUGE expanse of stars, along with the every changing moon. Who knew it was so incredible? I can see the beauty now that the moon highlights while it's out to shed whatever light it can on the Earth below.

I can't TELL you how many times I've cried by myself in the dark...crying in the light just isn't as heart felt...or pure...or as pretty. When I cry, I want to be alone, I want to feel every emotion that I pour out, I want to concentrate. Crying can be very exhausting!

Plus, I'm not a very pretty crier! I like to be honest here at BlokThoughts.

Another good thing about the Dark? Make-Out sessions. They are only good in the Dark...with just a tad bit of light! They had it right in the old days...there is just something sexy about candlelight and kissing someone!

Excuse me while I reminisce...

I'm back! Body only...mind is still somewhere in the years 1997 and 2002!

Moving right along :)


I wish I could capture the light that the moon brings to the darkness of night. This shot here on the Left is of the Moon and if you look below a bit you'll see a "star"...that basically looks like a white dot...

There were Many stars out...but I can't seem to capture them...this however, was the brightest. I BELIEVE it was a planet..

Hold a sec...let me Google it...

Standby...

Okay...that white DOT there you see...has been confirmed as the planet Venus.

I love Google!

Whenever anyone asks me any kind of important question, my answer is always, "Oh let me Google it!" Who needs a memory when you can just let Google retain unwanted information that you can retrieve at the tip of your fingers?!!!

If that power EVER ceases to exist...I'm screwed...I'll be just a Homo-Sapien with nothing in the brain but mush...which is what I am now, only I have GOOGLE, so I pretend I know a lot!

Wish I would have invested in that stock when it was just starting out!

Here's another look of an attempted Night Shot...With the Temple as a comparison of light...seriously, I love it! Thanks to my Dad and a frantic call from my Mom...I was able to capture this shot :)

Love Shelle

P.S. Who's still afraid of the dark? Come on...who is?

46 comments:

brooken'dus said...

NO really I am.....just usually after my husband makes me watch a scary show before bed. Then I have to get up out of bed to re-check all the doors in the house to make sure they are locked and make sure my kids are in their beds breathing!!!!!!! ARG I hate scary shows!!!!

Mariko said...

I am. I love to watch thrillers (not slashers) but then that's what I think about when I go to the bathroom at 1 am. Then I hurry back to bed and listen to the noises of the killers walking around my apartment.
I used to only cry in the dark, but now I do it in the light so everyone can feel guilty seeing me do it. :)

April said...

Oh my gosh!!! I recognize that temple....that means that the Target you were in with the poo episode, is the same Target that I go to!!!!! The one with the Olive Garden in front of it???? Say it isn't so!!! (Just swallowed throw up).

I will have to disinfect my shoes every time I leave that place from now on!!!!

The Crash Test Dummy said...

Oh, I like to cry in the dark too. And make out. Both are much more heart felt and pure. And prettier. I'm prettier in the dark anyway.

I'm a hideous crier too! Twin!

Hey I found our triplet. He's not as pretty as us (in the dark), but he's kinda wacky.

I'm having a slumber party tonight. I hope you can drop by.

The Crash Test Dummy said...

btw, that black sky, moon + venus photo is awesome!

Kristina P. said...

Sorry, not me, but my husband is afraid of the dark combined with thunder. I am very sensitive to him when it thunders. And by sensitive, I mean mocking, of course.

T said...

oooh, April's hanging out at our Target too?

Dark doesn't freak me out (my blog today is all about the things that DO freak me out though)

beautiful photo!!!

Barbaloot said...

I'm fake afraid of it. Most of the time I like it---but when I've been home alone all day, and suddenly it's night time and I have to turn off lights in the house, or walk through areas where the light is already off---not my favorite thing.

Annette Lyon said...

I used to be terrified of the dark. Now, not so much, provided I know where I am and that I'm safe.

Lovin that temple shot.

binks said...

I was soooo afraid when I was younger and slept with the covers over my head.
Then it was just my feet had to be under the covers to stop the thing under the bed from getting me (like a sheet was going to somehow protect me - lol).
Now I'm too hot at night to sleep under any covers.
I not so afraid anymore, but like Barbaloot, walking through the dark house, not liking that so much...
And crying IS better in the dark.

♥georgie♥ said...

That temple shot is awesome!!!!
I am not so much scared of the dark anymore...as a mater of fact it has to be pitch black for me to sleep

Haynsy said...

Okay Shelle,

I'm the triplet.... and since I seem to be the guy in this threesome... I mean family, I want some respect, cause I'm older, and I'll never be cuter than the two of you, and Dad likes you best, and, and, you two have to share a room!

Now be as nice and Crash and follow me. You're my type of girl from what I'm reading.

Haynsy said...

I mean as nice as Crash, not and.

clan of the cave hair said...

what's to be afraid of when it becomes the key element in creating such lovely photos?

Sher said...

I'm totally scared of the dark. I still run really fast up the stair from the basement after I turn off the lights. I wait until my feet are off the floor and under my covers to turn off my lamp at night, so something doesn't grap me from under the bed. I can't go to the bathroom in the night without turning on the light because Bloody Mary will appear in the mirror (yeah that one still haunts me from a 3rd grade sleep over)
Ok, TMI? Now I'm embarrassed.

Shannon said...

Hey! You weren't dating Klayton in the year 1997!! What exactly or should I say who exactly were you thinking about!!! :)

shannon said...

Afraid of the dark?...maybe just a little...
I'm jumping on your blog bandwagon--What a funny gal! I commented on your Fecal Matter Post just in case you don't ever go back to check the earlier comments.
Thanks for making my day!

Becky said...

Alright, alright, I'll fess up! My name is Becky. I'm twenty-eight years old and I'm scared of the dark.

There. Happy now?

Seriously, I still get a running start to get in bed so the monsters can't grab my ankles. It's very sad...

Heidi Ashworth said...

You're such a funny gal but I'm willing to bet my bathroom stories could revile yours. Your photos are breathtaking! Why did your temple shot depend on a franctic call from your mom? Come on --you know you were just dying for someone to ask! (or am I just so late to the party I'm the only one who doesn't get it? Not again!!?!? )

Kate said...

I am almost 29 and still make a pillow baracade under my bed so nothing can grab my feet when I get into bed. my husband always wonders why we have soooo many pillows and he can only have one.

Melanie J said...

I hate scary books and movies. I'll never outgrow that. But at some point I thought I'd outgrow fear of the dark. Uh....I make my husband keep the bathroom door and closet doors closed at night so nothing can come out of them while I'm sleeping. Cuz I'm a freak.

Dopp Family said...

Shelle... that second picture with the top of the temple is beautiful!!! Honestly, good job on that one!

I totally hear you about being afraid of the dark!! You made me all melancolic for it to be summer though so I could go lay outside at night and look at the stars!

Kritta22 said...

I wasn't afraid of the dark for very long...a year or two. Then I noticed a hole in my ceiling. (It was from one of those plant holder things so it was a pretty big hole.) I would sit and bed and just stare at it cuz it was right above my thighs. I had thoughts of aliens coming down through the hole and cutting my legs off. (Cuz there was no roof, in those days) Or they would have cameras and watch me sleep.
It wasn't scary in the day though...just at night. And Mom's don't listen to little girls who are suppose to be sleeping, tell stories about a hole in their roof. I was scared until we moved to our new house in 2000.

PS I just google Josh Groban because my friend said he was gay.....which for the record he is NOT!!! It started a rumor by South Park...I hate that show!

Pretty pictures.

Kritta22 said...

Oh and I'm afraid of the things on I AM LEGEND. It's real. Will Smith said so...it could happen. I hope the Second Coming, or just before, is nothing like that. I'm scared!

Kritta22 said...

I missed Crash's slumber party. i had to babysit. My friend Taron watches Connor all the time and she asked so I really had to. Her internet is slower than my microwave with popcorn in it!

Kritta22 said...

I agree with you on crying in the dark. My husband says it's the only time I'm not pretty. (I think someone paid him to say that but whateva!)

Kritta22 said...

So I went to Crash's last night to catch up on her blog. And found out some cool stuff about her. I heart that woman...she's a tough cookie!

Anyway I email follow-up'ed her comment box....I've never had so many emails before in one day!

Kritta22 said...

I saw that you have never had 70 comments before....well, I'm here for you baby! It's my mission in life to make people's day with comments!

Kritta22 said...

My hubby and I are going on a date to the temple next Friday. He is not excited about it. He says it still feels weird.

I told him to get over it! :)

I'm so sweet!

Kritta22 said...

I don't remember what you got for Christmas. Did you share?

I got a pretty ring and lots of goodies.

Kritta22 said...

Speaking of goodies, I need to send you a box of candy. i totally forgot until just now. It's on my to-do list!

Kritta22 said...

Your computer comments say it's 2:51am there but it's only 1:51 here. Are you on the same time zone as Seattle?

Kritta22 said...

I think now that I'm in the military vicariously, I've become obsessed with time zones. They are important. Especially when my mom who is in South Dakota calls at 6am...she thought we were ahead of her...if it was anyone else but Grandma, I tell you what!!

Kritta22 said...

I'm not a morning person. Are you?

Connor isn't either. We go downstairs, when I take him out of his crib, he goes into the high chair. I get us both cereal, his dry mine with milk...and we either sit or watch a little toons. When we are done, we both feel better and are willing to move on with our day.

Chris messes with this system on the weekends, he's one of those...yes...I'm going to say it....Morning people!!!!

Kritta22 said...

I think you should have to take a test before you get married...

1. are you a morning person?

2. Do you sleep with the TV on?

3. Clean and spotless or lived in?

4. Dryer sheets, waste of money?

If your answers are different than your soon to be spouse, your marriage license will not be given to you, EVER. Try again with another person.

Kritta22 said...

I wonder how many fights or even divorces would be saved with those questions.

Kritta22 said...

Looks like April lives next to you...that's awesome!

Kritta22 said...

My friend has cable...we don't have it yet cuz we are saving our pennies for a dish so we can take it with us...anyway...

I watched the new Real World. They have a real Mormon on there. Not like Julie who just said she was. He doesn't drink, smoke, have sex and answers all kinds of Mormon questions. He rules in my world for being a great person!

Kritta22 said...

Oh and I watched Dog, the Bounty Hunter cuz I just have to stop when I see his wife's boobs. I have to have the internal battle with myself over if they are real or not.

If they are, poor girl. She has to have back issues. But it seems like Dog likes them. So maybe she keeps them to keep her man happy.

If they are fake...loser!! Why would you do that to yourself!?

Kritta22 said...

Oh and I watched Top Chef for a second...they need to give some of those people makeovers before they go on TV. If I was to be on TV, promoting myself and my talents I would make sure I brushed my hair and teeth everyday. Maybe check the mirror through out the day to make sure I have everything in place. It's TV people!!

Kritta22 said...

Well Shelle, I'm going to have to disappoint you today...I have to go to bed...it's 2am. We'll get you to 70 comments, I promise!!

Shelle-BlokThoughts said...

Kritta...totally fine NOT to have 70 comments...but I love when you have conversations in my comments box! You're the best! :)

Natalie Sue said...

Wow, number 43!

Hey, sorry I've been a lurker lately. I still check your blog so often, usually with two kids on my lap watching Elmo on a split screen... so I end up not typing anything! But today? Elmo is on the old fashioned screen in the living room!

Anyway, I google absolutely everything. No joke, everything. I would become a brainless blob without it.

And the dark? Still scared of it when I'm by myself. I have to thrown on all the lights. Maybe I'll grow out of it someday!

Marie said...

Me and the dark are friends. Compadres if you will.

That is until I stub my toe or trip over something that really shouldn't be where it currently is. I run into walls a lot too because my sense of balance is all awry.

N-E-ways, I love to be out in the dark on nights when we go camping, just staring at the stars and the moon. That is one of my favorite things. But one thing that I hate in the dark...bathrooms (except my own). Can you say creepy?

Alyson (New England Living) said...

You got some amazing shots there, Shelle! Simply beautiful.

No, not afraid of the dark. Crave it, actually.

Shannon said...

Remember the show "Unsolved Mysteries"? I could not watch that show by myself... I'd make my sister watch it with me! And I'm over two years older than her!

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