Just a tad bit serious...

As I sit here and prepare a lesson that I will give for the sisters in my ward...my heart goes from heavy to light.

It's like I'm being tossed around in a sea of emotions. My mind is tired...but my heart will not rest.

By now you probably have figured out my pattern. This blog is light hearted and happy...but on Sunday's I love to write about things that bring me peace. For me it is religion and family and knowledge that comes with both. So even though it is still happy...it is more happiness from HOPE and FAITH, instead of comedy by Shelle! :)

Like my good blog friend Crash wrote a few days ago Make Someone Happy (In which she totally makes you laugh while making a point--she's incredibly talented at doing that--plus she gives me some linky love), that is my goal almost daily with this blog, hopefully to make people happy. It use to be to journal for myself...but when I began to get an audience I reverted back to what makes me comfortable...and that is making people laugh. I love it...I love to be happy, I love to laugh, and I love to be in the company of others that also laugh. (It's all a journal of my feelings if you think about it!)

It's how I roll...

But the GOSPEL in my life also makes me happy in a totally different way. And I also LOVE to be in the company of others that are happy in that way also, or both.

So what I'm saying is...if you only want to laugh WITH me or ABOUT me...you may want to skip this post.

Where was I?

Oh yes, preparing my lesson. So I'm just going to unload all my feelings here...just pour them out for you to read...so get ready!

The lesson is Chapter 21 in the Teachings of Presidents of the Church: Joseph Smith and as I read...and weep...and smile...and read...and prepare, I have to say, without a doubt in my mind, that I believe WHOLLY that he is coming...AGAIN.

After a 150 years...the MOBS are back. But it is a sign of the times...it is meant to come to pass.

And I can't WAIT!

Do I tremble when I read what has to come about before we see HIM again? Yes!

Am I prepared to meet HIM again? Not fully...I strive most days to prepare...but I am human and weak and every step forward I feel when I fall, I fall two steps back...yet, I still am on a straight path. Forward or back is okay...falling off is not.

The heavy heart? The rollercoaster emotions you ask?

It has a lot to do with things I have found out this week...things that, to me, show we are ever nearing the time when HE will be here again...things that must happen, yet, I have to rear and raise children in all of it...and MOMMA BEAR comes out quite a bit.

My greatest fear comes of what HE will think of me...what HE will say...everything else is just something that must be endured...MUST BE.

But then...then...I read, and I feel, and I know that, in the end, it will all be OKAY. :)

And like I said last week...it gives me HOPE and happiness that I might see HIM come again...and that if I hang on to that ROD I have been given...that it will be one of the most GLORIOUS things.

This incredible photographer put in pictures what I cannot do eloquently in words:


So I can't wait...I can't WAIT to meet HIM and I can't WAIT to see HIM...and I hope I am worthy of both. :)

So forgive me for bearing my soul...for being a tad bit serious.

Love,

Shelle

P.S. Tomorrow will be the Last entry for Don't You Hate It When for November(I know, I know...it's not the last week, but that is how I'm doing it...so deal with it!). So if you would like to win the Grand Prize...get your posts ready. Be sure and read the FULL post tomorrow because some things will have changed for the following Month! :)